i am back in jb. reached home around 2, texted friends and oved ones, uploaded all the stuff tokmak had sumbat in our car, did the laundry, had our lunch – nicely packed rice in banana leaves and ketupat, lodeh and rendang, sambal kacang and sambal ayam.
i thanked God for giving me another chance to meet this year’s eid, giving me another chance to ask forgiveness from my parents and family. i did wrong everyday, i raised my voice to mama always, i slammed the door everytime ayah marah.. i am not as good as what i wanted to be. ini pun minta maaf dgn menahan air mata.
earlier, a few days before the eid, i had a row with Amir, my brother. dgn keadaan sgt marah, aku ckp “dah thn ni tak payah raya pun tak apa. buat apa susah2 nak jumpa nak minta maaf?”.. mama marah when i said that
it served me right. i didnt enjoy my raya. menstrual cramp on the first day, severe headache on the second and third. i was on the bed/couch all the time. sungguh tak best
ahah.. jgn ckp “tak nak raya” lagi.