.. is the day when Adam refused the B at all. Yes ppl, he wean himself from the B.
Everything went so well, until last Thursday. Balik keje mcm biasa, he chased me for the evening session feeding. It’s the time where he would drink and play at the same time. Then dia tertido, maybe penat sbb ptg tu before balik dia pegi main kat playground. Around 8.30 he woke up, wailing calling for me. I attended him, offered the B as usual. He just put his lips and close it really tight. Then few seconds after that, he open his mouth, try to latch. Tak sempat latch, dia tersedak2.
Mlm tu mmg nightmare. Lepas terbangun tu, then I just thought “lapar nak mkn nasi agaknya”. Then I put him in his highchair, join us for dinner. Mkn tak seberapa, so mestilah mengantuk.
Tried to put him sleep, but very hard. Merengek2.. last2 tertido sendiri mcm tu je. Around 3, dia nangis nak minum. Then again, he refused me.
Subuh time, after tukar diapers baru, sapu minyak kat perut dia. aku ingat dia sakit perut.. then dia nak pulak. Least I know, it was the last BF session. 😦
Yesterday, balik keje.. siap2 nak pegi KL. He did not ask for milk. ok la kan. but he obviously mengantuk. We waited for MIL to reach home before gerak to KL. I must say, ada hikmah MIL lambat smlm. I tried to put Adam to sleep in dimmed room. Merengek2 tak mahu. Dia cuma rapatkan muka to the B for comfort, but not for milk. after a few while offering the B, he kept on crying. I asked Ajek to go to bbsitter’s house. Terlintas dlm kepala, Adam tak mahu BF dah ke?
There, Adam langsung tak mahu mama! Nampak Cik Nina terus dia peluk gila2. 3 4 kali jugak la aku try amik. Masuk kereta lepas amik FM from her, Adam nak terjun keluar. Bbsitter ckp, “takpe la, biar akak susukan dulu, Tuty pergi la mana2 dulu” bila dia nampak aku sedih. (owhhhhhhhhhhh sedih gilaaaaaaa weiiiiii!)
After half an hour, Adam dah tdo. K.Nina ajar mcm mana nak buat FM dia.
Pg tadi, pun pening kepala. Adam knows, he doesn’t need bottle when with mama, but at the same time he refused to BF. so HOW? cup? tak nak. abis tu? Ya Allah.. Adam jgn la uji mama mcm ni. Dah la sedih kena reject. Tak tau mcm mana nak bg dia susu nih. Adam nak minum sunquick ke sirap?
Pastu aku geram(plus letih tak tdo sepanjang mlm mcm mana nak bg Adam menyusu), aku paksa je masuk mulut dia. Baru dia minum. Boleh jugak la tarik bottle, then suap the B right after that. Tapi pastu dia stop. tak mahu.
ok.. part nak bg minum susu dah selesai. dah tau trick mcm mana.
Isu kedua. Macam mana nak bg Adam tdo lepas minum susu dlm botol sbb selalunya dia tdo masa BF, khayal-ngantuk-tdo. Kat rumah bbsitter Adam tdo dlm buai. Pagi punya session, tepuk sejam lebih, ok dapat tdo sejam je. Pastu main, makan, main… ngantuk. OK time for milk!
Dah minum tak nak tdo. Tepuk2 tak nak. 2nd bottle.. mamai2 tapi lepas habis botol, boleh pulak dia pass botol kat mama “naaaaaah”. pastu angkat bontot, main2 tukar channel TV.
last2, bg third bottle kul 4ptg. baru dia tdo sbb dah leeeeetih sgt.
Now I have to go shopping for
1) BIG Flaskto keep hot water at home.
2) Small-Medium flask to keep hot water for outing.
3) FM dispenser for outing.
4) Bakul utk susu.
huaaaaaaaa.. sedih2 sgt. I do not know mana yg silap.But Adam still trying to find the comfort at my chest, lagilah menambah sedih. well, if I take it positively, aku dah tak payah nak wean dia dari B susah2. he did it himself. but, he’s not even 1 yr 3 mo.
I am learning how to be a mom all over again. how to make milk, what to bring, how hot the water, how much to make..
That were the reasons why I heart BF.