Proses ni bukan mudah utk aku, juga utk Adam.
The day he starts fully on FM, he turns to be a heavy wetter. very very heavy. my idea to change to CD mcm jadi lemah pulak. usually he doesn’t pee at night, he’ll get wet after few minutes of waking up in the morning (7-8am). But, this morning, at 4am, the diaper get so heavy.
Dia bgn nangis kul 4 sbb nak susu. Ahh sedihnya rasa hati. He turn right for the B, buried his face on my chest, but did not want to open his mouth for the B, yet continue crying after few minutes. I ran downstairs to get the hot milk (lupa la nak bwk semua benda masuk bilik). Naik balik, dia tak mahu bottle. So I had to carry him, pat him on the back. Cakap2.. Dia nangis. and i said, “adam, mama tak tau mama nak buat apa dah. Adam minum la susu mama adam senang tdo. jgn nangis. mama sayang adam cuma mama tak tau nak buat apa”.. then dia diam, dia tdo balik.
at 6, dia bangun lagi tried to offer the prepared FM, he refused the bottle immediately. “adam dah tak mau sini, tdo peluk mama”. Immdiately he turn to his right, peluk, diam. lepas few minues, mula la lagi drama ‘haus dahaga-tak-nak-susu-botol-tapi-tak-reti-nak-accept-offer-BF’.. i brought him to the kitchen, offered plain water. haus..
baring2 dpn tv, peluk mama lagi (sedih sedih!!).. nangis lagi. showed him the bottle, “adam haus ni, minum susu eh? sian adam”.. after few trials, he accepted the bottle. he must be very thirsty.
4 and 6am mmg time dia menyusu.
my Bs are hard, mommies know why. I did not bring my pump. I managed to get adam on BF after he drinks half of the bottle. at least, mengurangkan kesakitan B aku.. adam still enjoying the short BF, playing with my cloths, my necklace, being cuddled.
I dont understand how this thing could happen at the blink of eyes. kalau aku pegi outstation 2-3 minggu aku paham la. he still uses the slow flow teat. pening kepala. i dont want to wean him off. aku tak pandai! tak kisah la adam tu dah panjang masa BF pun, but he still a baby to me. he needs the B.