Waa dah seminggu dah jadi ibu kepada 2 org jejaka. Ahah.. But I did not have that feeling, yet. Sbb Aidan takde kat rumah.
Aidan is warded at Hospital.Penawar, since last Monday because of jaundice. I did not feel so sad (sedih skit je) since I’ve expected it anyway for a couple of reasons. Firstly because I was a GDM mom, then Adam had that prolonged jaundice history.
Today, the bilirubin level is 14.8. Alhamdulillah, when he was admitted (on his 4th day), he was 18.1, the next day the level increased up to 19.2. His paed explained that it is normal for baby to have the peak day if bilirubin on their 5th day. Yesterday was 17. Kalau tak turun mmg pad amik darah lagi for extensive test.
Hmmm my 2nd child-birthing experience? It was a long and difficult labor, more difficult compared to the previous one.
I was naturally dilated (no induction!) by 4cm at noon. Masuk2 bilik gynae dia tanya, “are you ready?”.. ready tak ready la kan. hahhaha
I was hoping for natural birth – no pitocin (i dont know how to spell) to increase contractions. Sbb tu aku duk bersuka ria dalam wad, siap ada photo-shoot sessions lagi. It was a happy mood lah, apa taknya.. “I am going to meet my 2nd son today”! Ajek took a lot of beautiful pictures. Malangnya takleh nak share. I looked so happy, the lighting was good, well.. all in all i looked good (that’s why i said he took a lot of beautiful pictures hahahha)
Unfortunately, it was not allowed by my gynae. He explained that he need to plan the birth since (again) my amniotic fluid is terlalu banyak, kalau dia burst sendiri and kepala baby belum engage, mcm2 boleh jadi. Nnt takut placenta pun terkluar sekali. It would be dangerous for both mama and baby. DrTokha meramalkan aku akan bersalin blm masa buka puasa. Wow! bestnya 🙂
at 3pm, i was pushed into the labor suite. it was called suite because the space is bigger than any room. it has 30″ LCD tv, the baby warmer, a chair and a table for the daddy, a bathroom, lengkaplah semua. siap2 pakai delivery gown, terus naik katil and that’s it, i stayed on the bed until 1am. 10 jam dlm labor room.
3pm – still at 4cm dilated.
4pm – 4 cm.
5pm – 5cm, DrTokha pecahkan air ketuban. it was sikit je masa tu, 1 kidney dish tu pun tak penuh. i was, “oh mcm ni je ke yg dia kata byk tu?”. dia pesan, “kejap lagi air byk keluar”.then dia pesan to the nurses to call him if the dilation is 6.5-7cm.. Nurse ckp kalau sakit sgt tak tahan, she could give me the pethidin (aku tak tau spelling).
Nurse ckp aku cool je. Aku ckp, dah 2nd labor, mmg la tahan 😀
6pm – haha mmg byk gile air, the nurses had to tadah sana sini pastu panggil cleaner masuk lap air. immediately i felt the contractions getting stronger, tp masih maintain cool sbb aku tau there’s more to come. “come on baby cepat turun, mama nak jumpa baby” i said to the baby inside my tummy. I think he did not listen.
7pm – 5.5cm
7.30pm – 6cm. DrTokha was called. He was having his buka puasa at home. urghh sempat ke doktor nih? ceh ceh
8.00pm -DrTokha arrived, looking mengah2. Dia tak sempat tukar baju pun. Did VE to me. Then he said, “belum lagi nih”..
aku: hah? Ya Allah. Sakitnya masa tu dah tak tertahan. Cuma aku masih waras utk tidak marah2 Ajek mcm dulu. Yes, he behaved this time. Dulu aku nih tgh nak bersabung nyawa, dia duk buat lawak bodoh. Masa tu mmg rasanya kalau mati, suami tak redha. haha
8.30pm – masih tak berubah, kepala baby belum turun. Astaghfirullah, MasyaAllah. Allahuakbar.Itu la aku duk sebut. Nurse masih tanya nak drugs tak. I said no.
8.40pm – VE again. masih 6cm tp nurse ckp kepala baby dah rasa! I was relieved, finally. Sakit gile tp masih tahan. It is so close kan, mcm sikit je lagi. Nurse kata, “akak kalau tak tahan, akak push sikit2, jgn kuat2”.. Her shift ended at 9, rasa mcm “pls dont go, you are so nice, i need you”.. but it was left unspoken, there she left me. her name is Amin something2.. she is the nicest nurse, so soft yet so menenangkan.
9.15pm- Dah tak tahan. I request for gas, ethonox. the laughing gas. inhale, exhale, inhale gile, exhale by pushing slowly to satisfy my urge of ‘pushing’. it felt good by the way, mengurangkan rasa sakit tu.
9.40pm – 7.5cm. The nurses alerted DrTokha.
9.50pm- He reached the labor suite. Aku tanya dia, “Uncle, pls.. can i push now?” dgn nada mmg mcm nak nangis tahan sakit. dia kata, “of course, kalau sakit you push”.
nurse terus tarik the lower part of labor table/bed. diorg semua pakai apron. my kaki were strapped. at this moment aku rasa lega, akhirnya sampai part strap kaki ni yg aku tunggu dari kul 3ptg tu.
10.00 – 10.35 – THE ‘PUSHING MOMENTS’. i pushed more than 10 times. maybe dah 20 kali ke. at one point i said, “Uncle tolong~”.
he used vacuum to assist me with the labor. even with that, rasanya i had no more energy left. the nurses around me ckp “sikit lagi, push panjang sikit”.. masa adam aku tak kluar suara pun. yg kali ni sampai merayu2 mintak tolong. sampai dah aku ckp “uncle dah tak boleh..” aku dah nak nangis. tp aku tahan. kalau tak tenaga terus takde. i know i have to do this! Ajek pun relax je kali ni, even he knew that vacuum tu dah setengah jam dah kat situ.
i keep on pushing at every contractions.. i know there’s a lot of tear down there this time.
“come on tuty you boleh. jgn give up. you pushed very good. keep on pushing tuty”, DrTokha said at a very relax tone walaupun muka dia berkerut2.
i have a very supportive ‘labor team’ around me. with husband supporting my neck, the baby is safely delivered at 10.35 pm. Ajek kissed me softly on my cheek and forehead. Terus ckp kat Ajek, “tak nak dah”.
10.35pm-1am : baby is cleaned, brought to me for his first feeding. tp aidan ngantuk sbb aku duk sedap melayan gas. nurse bawak aidan pegi nursery sbb dia tak nak breastfeed. he needs to be fed immediately, takut nnt dia hypoglycemia (lagi, sbb aku GDM). dia ada high insulin level in his body.
mama, ayah and ani (my sil) came visited me in the labor suite. i could not even open my eys. i was too weak. mama picit2kan kaki, ani buat2 lawak. i was half asleep.
i need to be there at least for 2 hours to observe for any bleeding. they checked my contractions every now and then. alhamdulillah everything went so well. at 1 pm, i was pushed into my room.
kat bilik, pitam. sedar2 ada 2 nurse duk pegang aku kat bilik air. asalnya sorang je yg teman aku. entah bila boleh gelap.
ajek went to McD to buy me a bowl of bubur nasi. seb baik dekat je mcD tu. ingatkan boleh suap sendiri. angkat tgn pun tak larat. siap2 mkn, minum air panas. dia kluar sahur. ok la.. aku redha dan pasrah tak larat nak jaga baby. tetiba kul 2.30 nurse dtg bawak baby. seb baik dah mkn, kalau tak aku geleng2 kepala. serious takleh bgn.
nurse tolong pegangkan baby. aidan tak pandai suckle. he dont even have the rooting reflex. daus (my bil) said that was because aidan was born before 37week, it is when the rooting reflex developed. lemah sgt, tak leh nak pujuk baby dah for 30 mins. i had to surrender sbb mcm nak pitam lagi. kang tergolek jatuh katil kang budak kecik tu. nurse amik bwk gi nursery.aku pun tdo, tak lena pun.
awal2 kul 8 DrTokha dah sampai nak review. he signed the discharge form. he explained the causes of the long labor. the baby’s head is not in the correct position, pastu tak mold dgn my pelvic bone, kepala tak muat nak lalu.
dia ckp, kalau tak pakai vacuum, it is still safe to deliver but it would take few days for the baby’s head to mold into mom’s pelvic bone (something like that la, kalau ada org lain boleh betulkn?).. but it is dangerous to let me like dat. dah la kepenatan, baby pun boleh lemas (remember that air ketuban dah pecah).
masa adam pun mcm tu. so next baby(?) i need epidural, ok sayang? buku ina may’s tu, aku hadiahkan lah kat kawan aku. buku tu bagus, cuma aku tak leh nak aplikasikan kat diri sendiri.
aidan’s first few days, dia tak pandai nak latch. that was satu cabaran. tapi aku tabah! aku pujuk baby every 1 hour. tp mmg dah tak pandai nak latch. hari isnin tu dah kuning dah. kitorg terus je gi hospital. tp skrg dia dah pandai dah~ suka aku.
ok, its time to send bekal susu for aidan. i made a berbaloi-baloi investment for freestyle pump. have been using it every 3-hourly, i could make enough supply for aidan. alhamdulillah. hoping that he would be discharged tomorrow. mama, daddy and abang adam missing you so much.