the boys are sleeping. i am finally ‘finish’ my 40 day ‘pantang’ HAHA

i just thot to write about how easy to put aidan to sleep. but tonite he had trouble with sleeping. dari kul 6 ptg sampai la ke 10 mlm.. ngek ngek ngek.. merengek je. naseb baik abg adam ikut daddy pergi marhaban. kalau tak, si adam mesti sibuk mengajuk adik dia nangis. kalau ngek ngek tu kejap.. nampak la comel. kalau lama, mmg irritating betul. hahahha

we dont do so much hariraya-ing this year. bcos eehemm.. i am still in pantang mode. i was supposed to sit straight and still at home, but i did not. mama said, the tukang urut said i had bentan already. ok, not enuff rest i must say. ulang alik hospital, rest apa? hmmm mama jaga 2 minggu naik 2kg. ok.. syok duk umah mama. ramai geng melayan adam, maka aku tak la risau nak kejar 2 org kanak2 belum mumayiz.

adam dah kurus sket, dah la mmg susah benar nak naikkan bdn dia. he had trouble with milk. duk loose stool je.. i mean, really watery.. pastu biasa la raya2 ni mcm2 la dia mkn, duk batuk2 pastu uwekkkkkkk.. aku duk huaaaaaaaaaa – cuci umah memanjang. and this evening we had to siram our hall because the ‘watery stool’ melimpah. luckily he was not on the carpet. and so lucky enough he knew how to tell us that something is wrong with his diaper. uishh… naseb baik (dah baper kali nasib baik) kat umah sendiri!.. !

aidan had his final review with DrKok (puteri Specialist) on his jaundice. yay, finally someone is saying that the jaundice suda mula surut. wow wow i am so relieved because at one moment he looks fine, and at one second he looks so yellow. hehe.. rupanya mmg begitu. aku sangkakan mata ku sudah juling kerana dah biasa tgk kuning2 emas nih. yeay, the boys would buy me loads of gold when i am old. jadi makcik jarah pakai emas sampai ketiak. haahahha takde la. aku cuma doakan mereka ini besar menjadi org yg berjaya dunia akhirat. sejuk perut gendut yg telah mengandungkan mereka nih~

smlm aku mkn kuey tiau (dlm tu ada kerang).. pastu hari ni aidan naik rashes kat perut. huhu nasib baik jumpa paed today, so  takde la nak rush ke mana2 klinik lain. the rashes are quite bad. hopefully esok ok. paed pesan suh aku jaga mkn. ok, i follow~.. aku mmg ikut ckp dokter saje. ckp2 org i tak ikut.

aku sudah me-master-kan diri utk diam, senyum dan angguk dgn petua org tentang jaundis. jaundis? ask me. i have two boys who had high-prolonged-jaundice. pelbagai air telah digunakan tetapi menjadi lebih teruk (for adam case), dan kami tak repeat kesilapan itu pada aidan utk mengelakkan perkara menjadi lebih buruk. we had traumatic period when it happened on adam.. tp masa aidan, kami agak relax sbb dah tau what to expect next. we know what are the tests would be done to the baby. susu kambing? no. ubat cina sinseh, NO NO – in adam case, the TSB increase dramatically right after we bathed him with that thing. jemur matahari? pagi je, kalau tak mmg itam legam la – kes adam jugak.

adam was not a handsome boy when he was 2 mo old. hahah he was HITAM dan chubby (biasa la BF babies). same case with aidan, masih belum recover hitam dari phototherapy, tp tak sehitam abg adam. he weighs 4.9kg today. 2 minggu naik sekilo. impressive!

will start mengarang my resign letter. 2 minggu lagi start keje?? urghh..

dear boss,

i nak resign sbb dah tak thn tgk muka you. i love the fact that i am actually working with one of the giant electronic company in the world. but, i prefer to stay close with my children. i was not racist, but you made me one. you always make me to choose between work and family.now i choose my family. pls get a new engineer kalau tak nak the other two subordinates benti keje jugak.

boleh?

 

Aidan sudah balik!~~

yippee yeay

but i have problem. the milk prod tetiba merudum since he was warded for the 2nd time. i dont feel engorge, i dont feel full. sian dia mcm marah2 masa feeding. pagi tadi i had to give him the EBM. baru dia diam.

ok lah. mari menyediakan juadah berbuka puasa.

 

Aidan – masuk hotel

I was surprised with the result, it was 16.8.. 1.8 increase despite he was fully on FM for one day, more than 24hours.

I am damn risau. Hopefully the all the tests that paed akan buat semua clear. Ingat2 balik, dia lahir putih.. tp mmg cepat sangat naik kuningnya. Lagi cepat dari Adam. At least Adam punya bili level turun masa stop BF kejap.

Ya Allah, berikanlah kami ketabahan. Berikanlah kesihatan kepada zuriat2 kami.

 

Aidan’s another paed review

Esok lagi sekali paed nak review dia, sbb bili level dia naik balik since discharge last Monday. Sudah ku agak anyway, samalah kes dgn Adam nih. Diorg ada first name baru, Ning Adam dan Ning Aidan. hahah kalau ada ketiga dan keempat pun, doktor kata pasti kuning jugak lah.

Masa discharge, 11.7. Hari Rabu dah naik jadi 15. aiyooh.. sbb tu kena review lagi. kalau naik lagi masuk hotel la si cenit nih.

Paed tak investigate gile2 kat Aidan ni mcm dia buat kat Adam dulu (and we spent thousands on his jaundice alone). Aku ada request kalau boleh nak mintak dia bg phenobarbiton kat Aidan mcm Adam dapat dulu. This is anti-epilepsy drug, but the one of other side effects is to mature the liver, increase certain serum bla bla in the liver.

Then she explained that usually doctor would give phenobarbiton if the infant is more than 1mo old, after all the investigation has been made but the baby still appear yellow-ish. But since I request, she suggested to stop BF for 2 days to rule out whether this is breastmilk jaundice or something is wrong with the baby. Iya, aku rela je kali ni sbb cara dia ckp tu dia tak salahkan susu i~ Dia suh pam simpan dalam freezer, lepas 2 hari ni sambung je dgn BF.. Doktor yg dlu tu dia kata susu i yg buat Adam kuning. Pedih hati i taw~~..

Hmm takde la samai 2 hari sbb mlm tu aku tak sampai hati Aidan duk merengek2 tak settle2 walau dah abis 4oz!! 4oz kan byk for 2week baby. Dia nak cari mama jugak. Hati mak mana tak meruntun? Surrender jugak la, Ajek pun tak sampai hati. Tadi nak tdo pun mengalami kesusahan. Terpaksa la didodoi2 lepas 2 botol of 2oz, siap tambah air masak.

I was tertekan jugak la, tp tak seteruk dulu. Rasanya tertekan sbb tak tau mcm mana nak budget byk mana nak bg Aidan minum selain dari tertekan sbb Aidan nangis2. Maybe it explained why my EBM cuma 12oz hari nih (tempoh hampir 20jam setakat ini)! Padahal I could expressed the same amount utk 1 sesi je masa Aidan kat hospital hari tu. Maybe I didn’t eat much, maybe I didn’t drink much. Or maybe i was stressed. Hopefully this not a sign of my menses is coming back.

I met DrTokha today for postpartum review. yeay, he said I am so-very-good. No bleeding in the rahim, the stitches are looking good (hahahhaha).. He also perasan I had shed my weight. I am 51.7kg!! yeay!!!!!!!! lagi 2 kg to shed. i want at least 49kg (my pre pregnancy weight). Kalau lebih hensem dapat 46kg – berat masa dating2. hahahhaha

it is proven that walaupun tanpa nasi yg byk I could still BF-ing my baby and lose weight and expressed milk more than Aidan’s need. Sebabnya selama ni aku duk pikir nak BF kena mkn byk nasi. Tapi lepas bersalin Aidan, aku tak selera sgt nak mkn.

hoh ngantuk la.